Sunday, May 5th, 2002
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5:52 pm - *This Weekend*
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*This weekend f-in SUCKED! Fri nite all we did was watch movies which was cool b/c we watched training day which is like the best movie ever and it was fun n stuff....but then my brother found out that Kyle slapped me across the face on nite when he was drunk and he flipped. He already hated Kyle, and that was it I guess. Him, Jim and Todd were like about to go beat him down...I was like ohhh GEEZ. then on saturday Tommy came over and they were like making this elaborate plan to jump him n shit so I was like "If I broke up w/him, would u just drop it?" and they said "maybe" so I broke up w/him. They don't really understand tho. it's not like Kyle beats on me. It happened once. And he didn't mean 2 do it as hard as he did....so...I don't know I just thought they were makin 2 big of a deal out of it. But they said it didn't matter b/c he hit a girl and there is no excuse for that. So whatever I guess, it's over now. On to the next b/f lol no j/k.*
*But seriously when I think about it I have had way 2 many boyfriends. Maybe it wouldn't be such a big deal if they weren't all pricks. Ok since August I've been in 7 relationships. Ugh. I have a feeling I'll end up going out w/someone else really soon to, b/c I always do. I can't help it I'm just addicted 2 boys. Joe S told me that he liked me and he really regretted not asking me out last year when I liked him n all this stuff. He told me 2 dump Kyle n stuff. haha EVERYONE told me 2 dump Kyle. yea...anyways...*
*I'm trying to get Brit 2 dump Cedric. He treats her like crap sometimes and I wanna beat his face in. Every single guy hits on her, she just needs 2 find someone that isn't a prick. Hey so do I tho. We met this 1 guy @ an Aeros game. He was SO hot. He got her # and gave her his but he lives far away. But he was so incredibly HOT it wasn't even funny. That day like 10 guys got her # tho, so yea.*
*I'm not as excited for summer 2 come now that I'm not w/Kyle. We would have partied ALLLLLL summer and it would have been grand. But ya know it's too late now. I wish Joe would just let me go out w/Todd. Todd is probably the hottest guy I know. Oh man. rawr. But he's Joe's friend n he's 23. The 23 part kicks ass 2 me b/c I can't stand having a b/f my own age. he has 2 @ least be 18. but 21-24 thats like the perfect ages. Joe would never let me date one of his friends. And he said Todds a heartbreaker, but I could care less w/a body like that lol. Alright well I gotta bounce, were goin ta get ciggerettes. <33 ya*
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You're a hopeless romantic. You fall in love easily and quickly, and often have your heart broken. You like romantic movies, books, and you're always trying to think of some way to wow your honey. People call you sentimental or idealistic, and sometimes they even make some comment about they might vomit if they have to listen to go on and on any more. Phew. Some day, though, you will make someone very happy.
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current mood:  flirty
current music: *R*Kelly*Fiesta*
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Thursday, May 2nd, 2002
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7:25 pm - *~*To all the people I know I miss my past, but the rest of u assholes can kiss my ass*
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*Why does the past always seem sooo much better than the future??? I miss my past sooo much right now. I really don't get it tho. This summer I hated my life, and now I miss it. It's so weird. I dont even get myself. But the past i really miss is summer of 7th grade and 8th grade. My gosh, things were *perfect* I didn't realize at the time that I had everything anyone could ever wish for. I feel like such a fucking idiot. Now things r good. My life has its moments, but it's not even the same. Not even close. God I miss *everything* my old house, my old room, my old friends just stupid shit that means sooo much 2 me. My old water bed, my old roof and all the good times we had up there, my old carpet, my old computer...EVERYTHING and ANTYHING 2 miss I do. And the most horrible thing in the world is I don't think things will ever b that goos again.......
current mood:  sad
current music: Eminem*Just the 2 of us
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Wednesday, May 1st, 2002
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7:16 pm - -**2 days in a row wut now biatch!**-
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12:54 am - =p
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hey hey whats up? i really should b sleeping but I'm out of sleeping pills sooo I'm awake haha. Me and Esther r looking @ prom dresses. Fun stuff~ I was I was going 2 prom, but yea my b/f dropped out and even if he didn't he's home schooled. =[ I never get 2 have n e fun!*
*Ahhhhhhhh o my I am scared that i will b sleepy in school 2morrow, which luckily 4 me it's a Wendsday & they don't assign hmwrk on wends. =D One of the better things about my ghetto school.*
*i'm finally starting to get into this LJ, but I <333 Gurl7x its really hot. But this 1 is hot too.*
*Kyle didn't call me 2day....which is weird...hmmm...o well...yeah...n e who...*
*Oh yea I'm gunna kinda-sorta b trying to behave around Kyle more and more as far as the drinking goes and everything b/c I really don't wanna dissapoint people. And i know it's wrong, but I <3 alcohol it's yummy. mmmm. But all of my friends I know thru Kyle will think I'm stupid, including Kyle and I really am not up 2 feeling stupid around people....so...yea..*
*Alrighty well I think were good 2 go haha*
<3333333
ViKKi
current mood:  giddy
current music: *Lil Bow-wow-Take me home*
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Wednesday, April 10th, 2002
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6:32 pm - ~*So sorry, it's over......*~
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*Ok this LJ is no longer friends only, b/c people think I'm hiding crap that's why it's friends only. And I don't want my friends thinkin that $hit. I have nuthing 2 hide so yeah.*
*Anywho, last night was sooooooo fun. Hahaha Kyle did leave me on the side of the street and drive off tho. LOL. I really didnt think he was coming back there 4 a second. I was like wandering thru Stow. I was so hyper and I was actin all crazy n shit it was great. Only problem is I never get home till after midnight and by the time I actually go to sleep I get about 4hrs of sleep a night and I've fallen asleep in 4 classes a day since Monday. UGH I should be sleeping rite now but I choose 2 b a retard instead.*
Find out which LifeSaver you are.
*Wow*
*Esther, I am so jealous of you, you get 2 see Tommy tonight =P haha.*
*Oh wow I really wanna do something 2 nite buttt I don't wanna b sleepy anymore.*
*School is getting in the way of my social life*
*Oh wow I was reading this thing from over the summer, and good Lord i've changed so much. Like I can't even believe how much I changed. But it's a good change. I was ....not....something..I don't no exactly wut but it wasnt too grand*
*Alrighty well I'm about to roll out my homie haha Boo Boo I <3 you hunny*
<333Vik
current mood:  anxious
current music: ~*Dr Dre-Next Episode*~
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Saturday, March 30th, 2002
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12:34 am - ~*Aight-Heres the dilly-yo*~
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*heyy babes its me Vik..I'm goin back ta usin this journal, as well as gurl7x also, b/c i was readin this and i realized this is a grand lil journal i had goin on*
*Soooo yeah~*
*jus got off da fone w/kyle...doin sumthin w/himm @ like 1 or 2 in the afternoon...aww my poor babes in some shit with his rents rite now...i feel so bad*
*aight ppls well im dippin, but its good 2 b back~*
*LUV YAS*
<3333333Vikki
current mood: giddy
current music: ~*Ashanti-Foolish*~
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Sunday, March 10th, 2002
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5:56 pm - *wowzers*
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hey this is vikkis sister emmie. i dont know why im writing in this...im gunna ask vik if i can have her old LJ (this one) but im still gunna keep my TOD. plus...LJs are kinda cool and the way u post pictures is easier..well im gunna go~> sorry its short but i dont know if vikki exactly said i could have it yet. soo ya kno...
<3 alwyas~
emmie*xoxox
current mood:  hyper
current music: *'Its All that we got....*
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Saturday, February 2nd, 2002
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4:55 pm - *~*$hit*~*
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ok wtf duhstyn mite not b able 2 go 2 night im so freakin pissed right now i dont even wanna write well i g2g bye
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Wednesday, January 9th, 2002
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3:45 pm - Hey Guys
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hey guys i am just posting 2 say that im not using this live journal anymore im gunna be using
www.livejournal.com/users/gurl7x
mmk? bye bye
MuAh!
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Monday, January 7th, 2002
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4:56 pm - ~*Vikkis back in action!*~
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Hey you! Its me and guess what?? I am back for good! Ahhh im so happy we got aol back cuz i missed u all so much. but now i am back and i can talk 2 u all again...yay! well i really dont have a lotta time to write now but ill b back soon.
<3Always
Vik
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Sunday, November 11th, 2001
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3:48 am - Ahhhh im back! i miss you all so much!
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Hey you guys im really sorry i havent been on my ghetto computer broke! but i love u and miss u al so much. ill probly get a new comp in december on my b-day so hopefully i can talk 2 u all again.
Anyway Ill kinda tell u whats goin on with Me latley....
Well 2nite was Homecoming and i am at an after party right now which is why im able 2 b on AOL. It was so fun i had the best time in the whole world...I won best looking and most ditzy...lol... Well i go to TCA now and i really like it there i wanna shout out 2 all my people cuz i love em...
~Paige-This is me just being me! Wow its 3:00! U better told me who threw this b4 i throw it at all ya'll. Peanut and chicken=Tru Love. I love u so much hunny BFFE
~Rosey-Ur a lil tease with ur short skirt and bunny ears! haha lol "I wanna laff when u laff" Lil A-C Rocks the boat! Rock on sweets i lylas BFFE
~Ester-Man we are super pure! i love ya
~Heather-Weed and coke 4 life! Rock on i love u BFFE
~Boo boo-yo yo yo yo yo murray!
~Kate-In the car, IN THE CAR! Coffee rocks on ZOLTAN! BFFE
~Jenelle-Hey are u sober cuz Im not i took 5 prozack! hahaha lol Wanna see me and paige make each other pass out
~Nay-I loive u ur so sweet! these cinnimen twists dont have any cinnimen on em!
~Lacey-Wet Spagetti! Tic Tac pills! The snack shop!m Whered he go!???????? hahaha i love ya bffe
~Ashlynn-Cow girls from Hell! aww ya rock on i love u
~Micheal-I got ur back! haha i love being ur bodygaurd ur a great kid and i love u
~Emily-Babe i love u so much im so glad i have u! Zitty McGee!
EmResE? Ass-Bouttom? Slurppees! LAzy Boy!
~Megan-Ur a QT Pie and i love ya
~Bobby-Ur great fun and ur base player is hot
~Sarah-Hey hun i love ya
~Jesse-Ur A queer child but hey i still love ya i guess
~Kriston-Hey ur great fun i love you
~Court-Even tho u dissed me at the game i still love u...no j/k but i do love u call me sometime i miss you and happy b-day
~Chad-Dont u love my sexy shoulders? haha ur awesome
~Lydia-Fillies and Colts! Paige is most likley 2 Trip!
~And n e 1 i 4got .............ummm i love u~
Oh ya and my "boyfriend" hasent called me in like a week.....ya ok here it goes again me and all my boyfriends that treat me like crap. If You read this Matt i just wanna say that I know you dont like me anymore and instead of being immature and avoiding me you could have just dumped me and not been immature i mean come on how old are you? 7? Im a big girl i can handel it. I would have called you but i dont ever call people unless its like an emergency and 2 tell u the truth after some of the crap ive heard about u i dont even wanna talk 2 u so whatever its over i guess...
Ok enought im like dumping my live journal..lol
Anywho i guess im handeling guys better b/c I accepted this so well normally i would be mad at the world for a week or 2 but ive been doing a lot better latley i feel like a different person its 2 hard 2 write everything thats gone on these past monthes but i wish i could have said it when it was going on. Hopefully i will get my AOL back and fill u all in later~ Well im gunna go guys as much as i hate to do this theres a party going on around me and im at megans house and ive been on here 2 long already so im gunna go im tired and cranky i just had 2 update b/c its been an insanly long time! To all of u who read this i miss u and love u lots! XoXo!
My other livejournal site is www.livejournal.com/users/gurl7x Check it out its sexy like me~ Well i guess this is it :::tears:::
Bye luvleys
<3 4ever and always
ThE dIsTuRbiD aNgEl
current mood:  cranky
current music: Blink182-Stay 2gether 4 the kids
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Saturday, August 25th, 2001
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2:34 am - ~*Life sux by then we die, Fuck the world, lets get high*~
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i am so pissed right now and i dont even know why besides the fact that my life sux which i know it does but why did it just hit me all of a sudden and make me feel like such shit? i dont even wanna write the reason y im really pissed b/c it sounds really bad...its just b/c i am totally self centered and i cant stop thinking about the way i look...pathetic huh? I have an obsession to look perfect and when i dont i freak out. I know ur probably all thinking "wut a little bitch thats not a real problem" and ya know wut i think that about myself too. Im a bitch who only cares about the way she looks. And i think thats cuz my looks are all i have. im not good at anything, all of my freinds have drifted apart, Im always stressed and feel like shit. but the thing that bothers me the most is when i dont look good. and then i feel like a total bitch and i hate myself completly. Why do i have to care about superficial bs like looks so much? whats wrong with me? I mean i know im not ugly but i wanna b perfect. instead of being thankful of what i have i dwell on what i dont have and i want more good things, i want a pefect like i want everything to b perfect. im 2 self critical and stuck on myself and its always been that way even when i was little and its always gunna b this way b/c thats just the way i am and even tho i hate it i cant change what my feelings are. Im sucha bitch i completely hate myself right now im a selfish lil snob and my life sux and it will always suck and its my fault. i made my bed so now i can lay in it. im being punished for all the shitty things ive done in my life and theres enough shitty things ta last untill the day i die and i know im getting what i deserve and i feel like shit inside im a fucking mess im having god damn panick attacks every second i cant sleep i cant do shit exept for look in the god damn mirror and try to make everyone of my hairs go in to place perfectly and put on some more make up and hate myself for not living up 2 anyones expectations. everyones voices are eching my head "Ur nothing special" "ur never gonna amount to anything" "ur bad news" "ur lifes on a bad track" "ur a bitch" "ur superficial" "u think ur all that, but ur NOtHING"
And whenever people used to say that shit 2 me i never gave it a 2nd thought and i always thought to myself ill show every1 some day. but i was wrong im always wrong and they were right. i am nothing and im not gunna show them shit b/c they were right all along my life sux and it always will and i need 2 quit fooling myself b/c chances are i may never get out of here and i will b depressed 4 the rest of my life b/c thats my fate and it always will b no matter what.
<3 ThE sElF cEnTeReD BiTcH
current mood:  angry
current music: Lil Wayne-Fuck the world
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Wednesday, August 22nd, 2001
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10:36 pm - ~*How Vikki spent the day*~
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2day was really fun 4 me...which is a total rarity~
Well i am now brace free. =) My teeth turned out so much better than i thought they would. There like perfect. Im really happy about that i have my mouth back. Yay!
I went shoppin 2day 2 heres wut i got:
~>Fuzzy/cozy lavender slippers
~>2 black skirts 4 school
~>Yellow AE Shirt
~>Fetish soap, candals, body wash n lotion
~>A pair of cute lil clunky black shoes
~>white platforms
~>Knee highs
~>A guess tank top
~>A baby blue jansport
and i think thats it thats all i can think of 4 now anyways.
And now prolly the highlight of the day:
Me and Chia finally decided ta do our own episode of jackass. We put on the biggest clothes we could find...mostly Joes and my ex b/fs...and padded ourselves with pillows...then we went outside and wrestled and skated and ran into shit and it was so fun. haha i no it sounds stupid but it was like great lol. im serious u all should try it sometime ull thank me later~ =)
Ughh i am so tired tho. Been up since yesterday...Dunno wut 2 do..Im the girl who just doesnt sleep.
I despratly need 2 lose weight i dont even wanna know how much i weigh...if its anymore than 113 i know i cant handle it. and my size 0'z dont fit anymore im up ta like a size 3-4. which pisses me off beyond belief. How did i let myself gain so much weight? I dunno but its up ta me 2 lose it or b unhappy with the way i look so im offically dieting again. *sighs* i hope i dont take it overboard like always and end up back in the god awful hospital. its weird b/c i never consittered myself anerexic..i didnt even think wut i was doing was remotly anything ta worry about and now i look back ta when i weighed 93lbs and i just dunno. i mean i know now that i had a problem then i guess but i also look back and wish ta still b 93. Twisted huh? My minds a mess right now..im so tired my toughts r jumbled 2gether.
Also its gunna b super hard ta lose weight when i have ta quit smoking 2. At falls i could have as many ciggerettes as i wanted in the bathroom, but not at TCA. So i dont think i can go 6 hours a day w/o a ciggerette so i figured i mine as well quit...looks like its not gunna happen tho. I seriously have to lose weight...i cant stand the way i feel about myself. Like i know i can look better and yet i dont and that pisses me off. God im so vain..i dunno i guess its just cuz my looks are the only thing i really have if i ever have that. the only compliments ive gotten the past 3 years was how good i look..other than that im a nobody another pretty face in the crowd...even tho i hate the way i look..i just...i dunno! Grrr im majorly stressed and i need some valium like u wouldnt believe. Its just 2 hard...ice cream and chocolate tastes so good..but i cant feel this way about myself any longer. Ok well im totally zoned out right now im gunna get off this biatch. I <3 ya guys
Hugs n kisses
~disturbid angel~
current mood:  weird
current music: 3LW-Playas gunna play
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4:28 am - ~*Its 420 BaBy*~
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My Spark Results~~~>
29% gay
25% stressed
53% slutty
29% bitch
69% pure
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current mood:  surprised
current music: R KeLLy
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3:22 am - *~*iNsOmNiA rUlEs BaBy*~*
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Lalalala-alalala. Ok i am a total *FrEaK* ok i was so upset earlier and now im as happy as ...
on of those shelfish type situations. LOL Sorry...anyways...I get my braces off in 6 hours! Awww yeah baby Im gunna b one SeXy lOoKiN bIaTcH! hehehe im hyper as a mofo~ Man being bipolar is werid but i like it in a way b/c i will just become happy outta nowhere when normally id b in the shittiest mood or should be. but then i just as easily get upset and have major mood swings and my bitch-0-meter goes thru the roof. heh. yaaaahhh well hmmm im postin all my surveys in my other journal....GuRl7x.
So ill make a list b/c im boreder than hell....
.?:*?*:?.StUfF i WaNnA bUy iF i HaPpEn tA gEt $!!!.?:*?*:?.
~*Staind
~*linkin park
~*Sum41
~*Greenday
~*Crazytown
~*Cute nail polishes
~*Another pair of adidas superstars (hehe my obsession)
~*An AE purse
~*Cute pajamas
~*Eye Shadow
~*Bracelets
~*Posters
~*Dolphin Stuff
~*Inflatible chiar/couch type of deal
~*Keychains
~*picture frames
~*Cute lamp
~*2pacs greatest hits
mmk well thats all 4 now but ill post again b4 i leave ta get the metal shiznit outta my lil mouth 4ever~ hugs n kisses~
XoXo~*V.L.i.c.i.o.u.?*~oXoX
current mood:  happy
current music: Sneaker Pimps-6 underground
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12:40 am - ~*Invisible tears*~
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Pulled down by the undertoe,
Never thought i could feel so low,
In all of the darkness i feel like letting go,
If all of my strenth and all of my courage couldnt lift me from this place..
i know i can love u much better than her,
Full of grace....
Old memories continue to haunt me like a knife being inserted in my heart over and over again. Why why why do i have to think about this stuff? The past hurts so much and the future looks just as bleak. I feel like such a waste inside. I miss everyone...even all the people who have hurt me so bad i cant bear to think about them without feeling sick. I wanna move back...i want to so bad... i miss my old house more than anything. i feel like sitting and staring into space for the rest of my life. i just dont care anymore. I dont have anything. What am i going to do? How can i possibly make this life livable? I feel like all the good things in my life surround me like glass bubbles and the people who i love most smash them in with a baseball bat and im left here with all the glass lying at my feet. and no matter how i try to pick up the pieces they just dont fit together and it will never b like it used to. but i need it to be like it used to i need it to go back to the way it was and it never will ever again. i should just pick up the glass pieces and insert them in my heart like every1 else has. my stomach aches like i swalloed a rock...my chest is empty.......
current mood:  crushed
current music: Sarah Mclaughin-Full of Grace
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12:21 am - ~*How i feel as of now*~
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What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...
and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize
that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go
a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
current mood:  touched
current music: Sarah McLaughlin-Do what u have ta 2
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Tuesday, August 21st, 2001
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12:57 am - ~*color all my days gray...for thats the way i feel inside*~
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I am havin a major panick attack right now...Greg is cheating on me. I feel like im gunna puke. I need a ciggerette soo bad and im all out. i think i mite actually cry for the first time in 6 monthes. but pry not. god i just wanna bash shit with a baseball bat. Every1 i love fucks me over...every1 i care about shits on me. the room is like spinning...i keep shutting my eyes real tight..like that actually helps anything...god wtf am i gunna do..I have NO ONE i have NOTHING. my life is hell. i miss the old days..i miss being miss popular princess as fucked up as that is i do...i miss everything...mostly mike..latley old memories just pop into my head outta nowhere and i feel like someones punching me in the stomach..i see me and erica rolling around on the ground when we fought...i see erica and mike at the valentines dance all over each other...i see my arm dripping with blood...bloods everywhere...im floating in and out of consincness..me and mike are kissing under the stars...me and erin and maggie are all dancing to sammy...were on maggies back porch drunk and tripping, her dad pulls in..that was the last time we ever hung out...im chugging jack daniels on the fone with mike i tell him i love him...pills fall out of nics purse..we start taking em..i go into convulsions...me & mike are alone in chrises garage..were smokin weed..we just keep passin it back and forth back and forth untill everthing is in black and white and i can hardley breath..the trees are moving back and forth...
~*I try to breath
~*Memories overtaking me
~*i try to face them but the thought is 2 much 2 concive
current mood: distressed
current music: Eve-Heaven only knows
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Monday, August 20th, 2001
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8:56 pm - *~love is....~*
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I stole this idea from naughtys journal..i thought it was adorable...some of her answers i kept, but most of em i made up
*Love is*
-arguing for an hour on who has to hang up 1st
-when hes the 1st person u think of when u wake up and the last 1 u think of b4 u go to sleep
-when he shows u a side of him u know no1 else has seen
-when your eyes sparkle when you see him
-after months in the relationship youre still excited when he calls
-when u think everything about him is adorable including his bed-hed and chia-pet goatee
-hes sweet to u in front of his friends
-when his eyes can say 1000 words
-you can tell him anything and do anything in front of him like burp or wear no make up and not be imbarassed
-when he remembers little things about u like ur favorite song or what makes u laugh when u didnt even know he was listening
-when he wrestles with you and treats u so fragile like ur gunna break
-when he sits thru all 3 hours of titanic and u know he hates it but pretends to like it for ur sake
-when he brings ur flowers for no particular reason
-when he just leans over and kisses you and u feel like its the happiest anyone could ever be in their whole life
-when u think about him and then u realize u've had a big goofy grin on ur face for the past 10 minutes
-he takes you to a place he loves
-walking into his room and seeing ur picture framed
-when his mom says that hes always talking about you
-when he tells you how beautiful you are and u know he means it
-when u think about all ur problems and start feeling sad and then remember you have him and anything seems bearable
-knowing his scent so well that you smell him even when hes not around
-when a beautiful girl walks by and hes so caught up in u he doesnt even give her a 2nd glance
-feeling close to him when hes far away
-when you notice "i love vikki" written all over his folders/notebooks..ect..
-when he tells u how much he misses u even tho u saw him 2 hours ago
-the way u know u can never get sick of him and even if you do u know hell give u space
-when u casually mention something like how much u like the color blue and he goes out and buys 20 blue shirts
-how his smile could make u hot on the coldest day
-when he grabs ur hand as ur walking down the street
-when he gets jealous about ur crush on matt damon
-how he hates writing but gives u love letters every day
-when he comes to you first with big news
-looking at the stars 2gether every night
-when he gives u his sweatshirt on a cold night
-how u can just sit with each other not doing anything and never ever get bored
-he lets u hold the remote
-when he asks u to slow dance with him even tho he cant
-the way he takes care of u when ur sick
-when u think of losing him u become nauseos
-when he sticks up for u over the littlest things
-when he walks u all the way home even tho he lives 2 miles in the other direction
-how you save every little thing hes ever given u and cherish it
-knowing how lucky you are to have found each other
-when the skys a different blue when hes around
-notcing the beauty in everything when hes around
-when he makes u laugh
-how u know he'll fight to defend ur honor
-arguing over who loves who more
-watching the sunrise together
-talking on the fone untill u fall asleep b/c u cant bear to say goodbye
-learning from each other
-when he talks about ur future 2gether and u know theres gunna b one
-the way u felt the 1st time he told u he loved you
-the way u felt the moment u realzied u were in love
-when a song comes on and it reminds you of him
-when you play all your favourite moments together over and over in your mind, like a movie
-the way he hates all ur exes just because
-when he tells u things u know hes never told anyone
-when he picks u up and carries u out of nowhere
-the way u look up at each other at the exact same time
-when opens doors for you
-the way he looks when u cry like his heart is breaking
-the way ur heart skips a beat everytime ur eyes meet
-crying for the first time in your life because of happiness
-how u guys still do things to impress each other
-using scary movies as an excuse to cuddle with each other
-when u can feel his heart beating aganst yours
-when u leave each other and walk seprate ways then turn around at the same time and run back 2 each other for another kiss
-feeling like u want to be a better person beacuse of him
-when seconds away from each other feel like hours
-knowing that u've found true love
current mood: sad
current music: Nelly Furtado-Turn out the light
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Sunday, August 19th, 2001
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2:07 am - ~*Ughhhh*~
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Ok my pyschitrist put me on this mood stabelizer and its BS. it knocked me out completly...i didnt even know i fell asleep untill i woke up and i was like wtf? im like all groggy and i feel like shit~ GOD when is he actually gunna give me something that works? prolly never. And im like all cranky and bitchy and lemme tell ya i dont enjoy it. I dont know i have to go..ill b back later
current mood:  groggy
current music: Eminem-The way i am
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